Sunday, June 29, 2008

the end of midsummer: the feasts of sts. peter and paul

there are many wonderful ways the church--the kirk, if ye be a bit scots--embodies the gospel.

in celtic lands, especially, the feast of sts peter and paul marks the end of midsummer and the beginning of a time of fast leading up to the transfiguration.

in cornwall, there are bonfires. (the best i could do was to go to cornwall beach and put candles in the sand.)

at st. paul's, bellingham, today we are kirkin the tartans. this event is not tied to any particular time of year, but i am particularly happy that it is happening today at st. paul's, especially when the new calendar makes this not just the feast of st. peter but also of peter and paul, the holy apostles.

the collect for the day in the 1979 book fo common prayer is

"almighty god, whose blessed apostles peter and paul glorified
you by their martyrdom: grant that your church, instructed by
their teaching and example, and knit together in unity by your
spirit, may ever stand firm upon the one foundation, which
is jesus christ our lord; who lives and reigns with you, in the
unity of the holy spirit, one god, now and for ever. amen."

i especially like the "knitting" image, echoing the collect for all saints day. the tartans of the scots were very much the work of human hands, died with the plants from local gardens. this event is a wonderful expression of the incarnation that makes salvation possible.

the kirkin o' the tartans is also a reminder that the church is more than just us now. it is "the blessed company of all faithful people." we join therefore not only with those of us who will gather in elizabeth park, but with those who have walked before us and those yet to be born.

i hope we sing st. patrick's breastplate.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

the forerunner: least in the kingdom

although the japanese manufacturing giant toyo kogyo chose the name of the ancient persian god of light, "mazda," so far as i know john is the only christian saint honored by sharing a name with a car, although i have no idea whether when toyota named their suv "forerunner" they were aware that the name was already taken by one of the most important of saints of the church.

john the forerunner is so important that the church commemorates not only his death, by beheading, on the 29th of august, but his nativity, today, the 24th of june. only our lord and his mother the theotokos are similarly remembered.

his nativity occurs at the height of summer, when the days are the longest, when earthly splendour is at its greatest. this can be a trap for us. we easily forget the profound importance of jesus words, "among them that are born of women there hath not risen a greater than john the baptist: notwithstanding he that is least in the kingdom of heaven is greater than he." (matthew 11:11) so we seek, not the kingdom of god, but the lesser good, and it is a good, of this world. we seek happiness in sunny days and toyotas.

even the book of common prayer's collect for the day lists the goods of this world, of the time of the law and the prophets (matthew 11:13, if you will, without speaking of the kingdom and the king to which john was pointing:

"make us so to follow his doctrine and holy life, that we may truly repent according to his preaching; and after his example constantly speak the truth, boldly rebuke vice, and patiently suffer for the truth's sake." these are good goals, but not the best goal. we are satisfied to settle for what the book of acts calls "only the baptism of john." (acts 18:25) we repent, looking for forgiveness of our sins, often (and in much of pop christianity only) because we want to escape the consequences of our mistakes--we want a get out of hell free card. but we never begin to truly live in the kingdom of god.

as great and faithful as john the forerunner is, and as excellent an example as he was, we are offered yet a better way. let us not be blinded by the brilliance of the sun at midsummer, but give thanks for john's witness and look forward to the even greater brilliance of the uncreated light which we see in christ jesus and which is available to enlighten "all men." (john 1:9) let us anticipate the next great feast of the year, the transfiguration, casting off the works of darkness that we might be true images of the light of christ.

Monday, June 23, 2008

bernard mizeki and proper seven

one of the great advantages of the liturgy is that it is not dependant on great sermons to be great worship. the hymns, the readings from holy scripture, the psalmody, the intercessions, and especially the prayer of great thanksgiving are so powerful that one can sit through a so-so sermon not so much in boredom as in anticipation of what comes next. i have, i admit, sat through many of those so-so sermons, and if i am truthful, i must confess i have preached some of them.

lately, however, i have been hearing very good sermons, sermons which take the role of proclaiming the word of the holy one today as a serious part of the work of the people called to be holy.

yesterday was no exception. chuck used as an example of the life to which jesus calls us in the gospel the story of bernard mizeki, who was killed for loving christ jesus and his followers more than the local religion. and even as chuck challenged us to take seriously jesus' call, he reminded us how easy it is to deny jesus, not in the dramatic ways which we might fantisize--"would i be faithful if faced with likely martyrdom?"--but in the little times, illustrated by an instance within his own life when he realized he had denied jesus without even noticing it.

chuck's confession of faltering faith made me wonder if we don't often deny jesus in a big way, also without noticing it. in the life (and martyrdom) of mizeki, it is easy for us to see his having abandoned what david l. veal calls in saints galore "that superstition and ignorace" of the local religions.

but we do not even recognize the the consumerism in which we so often worship for the religion which it is, a religion in the true sense of tying our world together, with which me have easily made peace, and from which we are very reticent to cut loose with the sword which jesus brings. our witness has been so easily neutralized that it would be silly to consider ourselves potential martyrs. again and again we have chosen "greed, which is idolatry," over the self-denial to which we are called. as often as not the cross we take up is a piece of jewelry. and we never notice that what we give up is the way that leads to true joy.

"Almighty God, whose most dear Son went not up to joy but
first he suffered pain, and entered not into glory before he
was crucified: Mercifully grant that we, walking in the way
of the cross, may find it none other than the way of life and
peace; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen."

Thursday, June 12, 2008

re-entry chattiness

after being away from bellingham for a year and two weeks, i am finding re-entry somewhat difficult. when living as a semi-hermit in the gentle hills of the ozarks, amidst slabs of ancient limestone, my life fell easily into a rhythm that i found deeply satisfying.

now i am back to the city, where at any given moment it seems there are more cars whizzing down squalicum parkway, the quiet street beyond my deck, than there are in the whole of eureka springs on a busy weekend.

i am trying to find another rhythm, one that keeps me centred on the holy one in our midst but which makes me available in "the conversation that leads us to new acts as todays apostles" in real time and not just on this blog.

so, i am adding two other sets of links, one commotions under the big steeple, the other groans of emmergence, and will try to engage some of the questions and issues that confront us in the noisy city. the blog about the mouse in the living room is part of that effort.

the mouse in the living room

jesus, so far as we know, said nothing about homosexuality. it is said that he loved two men (the rich young ruler and john--i know, agape not eros, a distinction to which i will return). but he did say a lot about economic injustice (and when he needed a coin for the empire, he never seemed to have one).

if i may paraphrase g.k. chesterton, it would be possible to develop a huge cloud of blog tags about whether jesus thought homosexuality is a sin (chesterton said whether he believed in fairies) but about whether jesus said that the rich are in deep shit (i don't remember what more polite victorian/edwardian phrase g.k.c. used) there is no room for debate.

earlier this week, i sat in on what the local congregation with which i most often worship in bellingham calls its "alms ministry." for one hour a week, people are allowed to come into the church building and beg. the beggars are treated well, and the people who distribute the alms are much like peter and john in the temple in that they offer the beggars jesus christ. but they are not like peter and john when they tell the beggars that there is only $150 a week to give out.

this is a lie. the church has much more money than this. the lease payments on some of the mercedes i see in the parking lot on sunday mornings are more than $600 a month. the truth is that we as the church--and not just in this congregation--love our toys more than we love our brothers and sisters in need. we choose to give only $150 a week in "alms." i understand the lure of toys: i have been tempted the past few weeks by a new bicycle. the ones i've been looking at cost between $600 and $1000. fortunately i personally have about $3.50, and no credit card, so i can't go out and indulge my temptation.

that one hour tuesday morning has been almost the only time since returning to bellingham that i have been engaged in any discussion or activity about an issue jesus seemed to think is important. (i mean, in the daily office last night we read again about his feeding of the multitudes, but we don't discuss this "in church".) instead, i hear about "the question:" homosexuality.

last week i went to a movie night at some friends' house, and the movie was "inlaws and outlaws." last night i went to a birthday party, and one of the other men there was a pastor of a local congregation of the church of god of andersonville, indiana, and he asked me, "what's the deal with homosexuals in the episcopal church?" (his was not a coy question. his own take is that there is sin in our lives, some of it heterosexual, some of it homosexual, but just as paul writes to the roman, we all are sinful, and so have no room to condemn each other.)

with tens of thousands of children starving to death each day, largely the result of the actions of the empire as much as the death of the holy innocents of bethleham was an impirial action, with the world's "only superpower" using its powers to destroy governments and people throughout the world, with corn prices so high that the poor of south american are doing without tortillas as the rich of north america are burning the corn in their chevrolet denalis, the upcoming lambeth conference will be reported throughout the world as a debate about how sinful it is for the american episcopal church to have selected and consecrated gene robinson as a bishop.

one of the more insightful essays about the wider implications of the debate expected at lambeth was in the july 2008 harpers, which puts it within the context of imperialism and its aftermath. it is of course much easier for us to say "tush, tush" about good old gene robinson, "isn't it a shame he started packing fudge?" than it is to look at our own responsibilities for the greed and suffering in our world.

it is much easier to talk about the mouse in the living room, to shriek and look for a better mouse trap or say how harmless the mouse really is, than to deal with the same issues jesus found important enough to talk about so forcefully that the empire found it necessary to try to silence him.

so, back to jesus and his love for at least two men. i confess i find the term "homosexuality" an oxymoron. sexuality is about reproduction; it is one of the ways diversity is kept within a species. but in our modern culture informed more by the scandalous magazines at the check-out stands of the grocery stores than by careful formation by the church in the real implications of the scandal of the cross, there is not much room for love, only for sex, and sex is no longer about reproduction but about lust and appetite-fulfillment.

as my friend from the church of god and i talked last night, i tried to encourage him to look at what happens between two men, between gene robinson and mark, for instance, as not about sex but about love. why do we define people by something that my friend said "takes about three minutes every two weeks?" is this the only time he loves his wife? is this all that there is between any two people who love each other? and if it is, should we split the church yet again over this small act while ignoring the huge acts of sins we ourselves commit? (i seem to remember jesus saying something about splinters and logs.)

it is fascinating that although all of the evangelists speak of the bridegroom, it is only john, in both his gospel and in his revelation, who speaks of the bride. (and paul speaks of neither.) i suspect such imagery, although very important in the mystical tradition of the church, east and west, and celebrated in the popularity of the song of songs and explored in carmelite spirituality particularly, makes many of us good old boys, whether mega-church pastors in colorado or cardinals in rome, uncomfortable. if we follow the imagery even paul does use about the submission of the bride to the husband, which he says is a mystery and is about the church, it means that we must die daily to our own will, to seek not power but knowledge, and not knowledge we can express on wikipedia but knowledge of the most intimate and personal sort.

knowing the holy one, the father who is revealed in the son, is eternal life. and it is also the way we come to love god, whom if we do not know we cannot love. and loving god prepares us to love our neighbor as ourself. and when we truly do that, fulfilling the first and great commandment, then our living rooms will be freed of pesty intruders small and great.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

a good day for singing

today is the feast of st. ephrem of edessa, sometimes known as ephrem of syria, a fourth century deacon who is responsible in large part for the beginnings of hymnody in the church. he is also patron of spiritual directors.

as i have been adjusting to life in bellingham again, i have realized that the most consistant part of my practice lately has been drinking coffee. therefore i find this prayer of blessed ephrem, used especially during lent in the eastern church, to be particularly helpful to me:

(making a prostration)

"o lord, master of my life, grant that i may not be infected with the spirit of slothfulness and inquisitiveness, with the spirit of ambition and vain talking.

(making a prostration)

"grant instead to me, your servant, the spirit of purity and of humility, the spirit of patience and neighborly love.

(making a prostration)

"o lord and king, grant me the grace of being aware of my sins and of not thinking evil of those of my brethren.

"for you are blessed, now and ever, and forever. amen.

"lord jesus christ, king of kings, you have power over life and death. you know what is secret and hidden, and neither our thoughts nor our feelings are concealed from you. cure me of duplicity; i have done evil before you.

"now my life declines from day to day and my sins increase. o lord, god of souls and bodies, you know the extreme frailty of my soul and my flesh. grant me strength in my weakness, o lord, and sustain me in my misery.

"give me a grateful soul that I may never cease to recall your benefits, o lord most bountiful. be not mindful of my many sins, but forgive me all my misdeeds.

"o lord, disdain not my prayer - the prayer of a wretched sinner; sustain me with your grace until the end, that it may protect me as it is your grace which has taught me wisdom; blessed are they who follow her ways, for they shall receive the crown of glory.

"in spite of my unworthiness, i praise you and i glorify you, o lord, for your mercy to me is without limit. you have been my help and my protection. may the name of your majesty be praised forever. to you, our god, be glory. amen."